it'smypast

2007-12-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

gosh dont know why recently ive been like eating weirdly.my 3 meals are so not 3 meals.i hardly eat dinner sometimes.and like today and last friday i ate double lunch.friday i had noodles and udon.today i had noodles then went to sakae to eat agn.like zomgosh.it's like mini binging.am i gonna get FAT?i so dont wanna get fat.im fine with moi current size.eh then again maybe not.my bottoms keeps slipping off.i kinda lost 4kg.and my pelvic bones stick out such that it hurts when i sleep on my side cos it rubs against e mattress.oh wait,im not ana.jst plain skinny.

been in a rough mood lately.it swings.i feel all messed up.the way im renoing moi room,i wish i too cld do that to myself.shopping used to be a cure.but i realise that it's like sucha waste of money and time.i wander aimlessly like a fool.and i buy useless things jst for the sake of spending to cheer myself up.unless one has a swiss bank account,that is when retail therapy really works.cos aft spending,the guilt comes.plus,time is really really wasted.so ive decided to visit the toshokan.it's so must better.i did that today :) time slipped by equally fast.but that was cos it was sth i liked.time flies when u're doing sth u like and crawls when it's sth u hate.so im trying to push the unhappy stuff away and do stuffs that i want to do.i hope ppl arnd me wld STOP being so pushy.im getting (sorry i have to say this but) fucked up.you know like when youre trying really hard to restrain yourself from throwing your temper at the ppl who have 'done you wrong'.you jst scold them and tell them off for the fear of hurting them.neither can you reject their requests or orders or whatevs.when you keep it too long,it boils in to fury ball.ready to explode any moment.aft being kept for too long,it turns into bitterness.

2007-11-07T11:22:00.001+08:00

ok,im finally back aft a uh dont-know-how-long hiatus.actually,im not even suppose to be back till aft the 13th.whatevs.i jst felt like updating can. -.- oh oh oh i watched when rules turn loose alr!ehmagosh sammuel chan and myolie wu are so compatible.bosco shldnt be myolie's real life boyfriend.he shld be tavia;s.and tavia's haristyle in heart of greed and the first beat fits her perrrrfectly.hm..what other new shows are there?cable has like maiden's vow.like so cheong hei one.dont like.now all korean shows.whywhywhy?!well,at least they're not the i die you die we all cry kind.and ive gotta admit their clothes make then look like fashion week's every day.

went to the library ystd.found the two lastest books of the clique series.like the cover of sealled with a diss but not the story.cos massie and derrington and cam and claire broke up.cant decide which couple's the best.-.- and well, what's w the NPC?whatevs.and it's not easy to be mean's cover's a-ok but the storyline's kinda cool.at least claire and layne got their 'revenge' on massie.who wld have thought eighth grade alpha wld like layne's brotherrr?and alicia's getting ahnoying.im so not a FOA!

cant wait for the 15th.cos im gonna search for winter clothes w mich.oh yayness.everyone's gotten their's except me.pfft.the other day, beijing was a minus one.ehmagosh.but today it's a five.i really want it to snow.while looking out for the weather information i realised that hyperinflation is a little happening.is it not?it's not the price ..it's jst linking back to history(although it's OVER).um so why?not as if there's a great depression.. -.- since im getting all new-sy fyi there's this girl with a parasitic twin.sadly the twin didnt survive.so she 'absorbed' the organs and the limbs.now she has 8 limbs..funny,her parent named her aft some goddess w 4 armed.okayy uncanny or unlucky?

2007-09-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

so far i've got back bio,hist elec and chem.tmr we're getting back EL.ohh gosh.im like panicking.i think my prelims are so screwed.how am i gna get into a jc i want.what more a good jc?well,i mst admit God has been merciful and gracious.he indeed has helped me.although i didnt do as well as i hoped,it wasnt very very lousy either?i mean when i got my papers back i did feel superly lousy.but after praying,i realised that God had a reason for doing this.and afterall,my grades werent very extremely mediocre.they were A-ok?in fact i did improve eh a bit?as compared to last term.jst that they were up to the expectations of yours truly that's all.so i shld thank God of whatever grades he let me have.i shldnt complain.it's jst not right.and i believe as long as i work hard and keep praying,trusting God, he will get me into where i wanna be eventually.and during o lvls,im not gna face it alone.God's gna be with me :)

2007-09-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

blehh.havent been updating.half of prelims jst ended.and it's officially the start of my one wk hols.as usual,hols aint hols.it's jst like extra time for you to mug that's all.but i like it.no worries bout finishing hw by tmr morning :) can jst mug the whole night.*grinz* oh well,prelims was basically A-OK.wasnt too good neither was it too bad.though i really really REALLY screwed my combine humans.someone shoot me.no more chance cuz both papers are taken.but for sciences and math still got paper 2.um yay?so i've gotta mug til there's no tmr for paper twos.i want to go _j really badly okayy.
back off mugging.anw channel 8 sat-sun 7pm 's showing this DOCTOR show.and it's TVB!plus there's RAYMOND LAM and BOSCO WONG(okayy bosco looked btr in heart of greed?idk.haha)anw,anw,anw im as much as a sucker for tvb med shows as much as im for pooh stuffs.wahaha.so im badly hooked onto it now.and it's only the debut.see,that's how great it is okayy.maybe im jst biased.whatevs.
righty.i'd btr go pack my room.it looked as if a tornado's jst swept throught it or like some epicentre of 6.5 on the richter scale earthquake.even my bed has books and files can.haha,i usually jst dump them erh..somewhere when i sleep.

ohh yes, to all teachers out there,
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

2007-07-24T20:03:00.001+08:00

the world is round, so whatever you do comes back to you.

pass on kindness and love so that in its process of returning to you,

people will be blessed.

spread the love around to expel the harsh and coldness of the world out there..

2007-05-30T11:03:00.000+08:00

hellooo.say,how long has it been since i last blogged?prolly millions of light years.haha uh jst kidding.but it really has been eons ago.

went out with pohyi ystd.i swear i wont ever like mug in the morn and go out in the aftn.my bag was friggin heavy,no thanks to all the books.and my shoulders were red at the end of the day.ate at some jap place in taka.i lurrrrrve the udon.(((((((((((((((((((((((: <333333333333333

popular had a moving out sale so i bot books,books and more books.so did pohyi.erm,hers was called notebooks (: it was pure fun.ohh we caught shrek 3.we were arguing over whether it was alr showing in theatres or not.pohyi insisted no and i showed her my video clip.you see,i video clipped the ticket booking page on shaw's webbie and the timing and all.haha.anw,shrek 3 was sooooo omgomgomg lovable.disclaimer : GO WATCH IT LIKE PRONTO.it's really nice.the beginning was lil funny-boring.but as the show progressed,it got btr and btr and btr (: everyone was laughing away.i love the part where pinnochio was like totally not lying to charming when he said he didnt know where was shrek and co.so cute.the silly pig blurt it out in the end.ohh and the queen,fiona,cinderella,snow white,sleeping beauty to the rescue part was uberhilarious.cinderella was uber bimbo in the show.actually,all were.and that traitor rapunzel.hah!hair extensions.

alrighty.enough of the giveaways.go watch it yourself.
sayonara.btm.

2007-05-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

WELL,SINCE YOU TYPE IT IN small, I WILL TYPE IT IN BIG (:
OUTDATED AYE?BAR BENDERS WAS SOO UBER LAST YR.I WATCHED IT ALR. DOUBLE (:
LASTLY, WHETHER I PREFER ANCIENT OR MODERN SHOWS , MYOB.
im sick of your ways.
ta.

2007-05-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

twin of brothers is soo cool.fer once i actually liked raymond lam in that show.i guess he only looks good in olden shows.but he had to die.i watched the last episode on youtube and it was sooo omg uberly heartwrenching.and i cried.damn,im friggin' emo.stupid,the original ending aint like that!acc to hem sources,there's gna be a TOB2.but there be no more yuzhi.instead,it's gna be some princess who falls in love with kouzhong.sheesh,kouzhong and yuzhi are the best can.this is even more saddening than when murong xian and suying died.omg.i think tvb producers have gone mad or sth.the serials nowadays have HORRIBLE endings.people who should end up tgt dont.blehh.there's this new serial called heart of greed.and and and linda didnt end up with raymond.instead it;s moses chan. :( double blehhh.

this is so random.im blogging bout tvb shows when i should be trying to swallow my history text.(in victoria's words)

2007-04-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

ss was fine.did i do the hardest seq qn?idk.but it kinda sucked.ohkayy,i might jst give up on spotting.it's really risky.two words,"what if.."

chem qn c2 was purely a dead giveaway.fro those in ms ho's chem class.cuz it was from last yr test.shje gave us fer some hw.and i did it.BUT i didnt rev that paper cuz i jst had too many ws.i was going shit the entire time,cursing under my breath on WHY i didnt rev that ws.damn.who'd have guessed that it'd come out again?!thank God i dont sleep during lessons.i somehow half managed to rmb the correct ans.except the colour of cobalt.but that's only 1 mark.so not too bad.i guess the paper was ok..maybe it's jst cuz im more prepared this time.oh well.honestly,i didnt feel the least prepared.i was freakin' out minutes before the paper and frantically trying to cram the smallest bit of chem into my turgid brain cells.i thought it was gna be horror..

next up's amath.i guess im fine.except ln curve.and parts of dy/dx?just pray that i dont get confused with the p and c.

all the best to everyone else out there who's having midyrs (: good luck.

i cant wait fer midyrs to be OVER.then i can watch my tvb shows!

2007-04-24T17:42:00.000+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS.that's tkgs choir for you (: lalala

EL papers were okayy.esp paper1.i never knew i wld ever ever right the one word essay.i sweared it was gna be my last choice.anyw,i wrote it.titled : courage.i love my first and last sentence to bits.haha.thank you jesus for helping me with today.

alright.back to dreaded ss.no,actually,ss is fun.since they said lopez is setting themes,im not studying theme four cuz it's sooo bloody long.like FOUR chapters.blehh.on the other hand,i think i'll jst study one out of the four.to play it safe (:

GOLDWITHHONOURSGOLDWITHHONOURSGOLDWITHHONOURS.ilovetkgschoir.once a tkgian chorister,forever a tkgian chorister!
ta.

2007-04-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

im n ot on cold turkey.cuz im here now.yeahh i havent used the com fer ages and now i find my email account frozen.so everyth is gone.i have a freakin short memory.forgotten all the passwords to my accounts like photoshop and blahh.shit.nvm jst guess the few passwords.haha.

choir wa shitty today.a lot of ppl cry.but i did not cry cuz of choir.it was cuz of pressure.anw,whatevs.it's over.ohh ms yin cried.i feel uber guilty.i want gwh!

i'll be fine.sorry i scared some ppl today.a big thank you to all of you guys.

2007-03-14T09:42:00.000+08:00

fyi,im NOT on cold turkey.happy now?

cant wait fer syf to be over.it's draining and im getting sick of it.practices have been pretty useless.most of the members dont even give a friggin damn bout the GWH.they so DONT know how much it means.ignorant brats who whine all the time when they dont even put in the little-est effort.i dont understand why must the snrs try so hard and sing so hard and USE SUPPORT when you guys jst literally BLOW air out ohkayy.it's getting irky.we get scolded all the time.and it isnt like we didnt put in effort.we so did can.dont you dare complain bout choir.sec4s are so much more stressed up than you are.fyi,mid yrs clashing w syf,high chance.you think we have A LOT of time is it?i say no (: enough said.enough of rantings.

honestly with syf over,ive got more time to mug.whee!then we all can go airport and study.and my tuition can be shifted back to wkends.then wkday afternoons free (: i must like really mug hard alr.i really feel btr after the treatment and medications,REST and FRIENDS who've helped me (: cant thank you guys enough.thanks fer helping me get back up on my feet and making sure i dont give up <333.

2007-02-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

helllooo world!im back.up and well.um soon;but im feeling btr alr.say,"YAY!"soon i'll be up and btr than jst a well.do i make sense?haha.nvm.im jst hyper.the iv thingy sure effing hurt.and instead of 3 'holes' ive got 5.cuz twice the fliud cldn flow.so thye re-poked.OUCH!but it's worth it.the pain,i mean.if i jst can get btr,i dont car ehow damnit friggin pain.and i even plucked up the courage to watch dr stuffing the needle in.eww.haha.im sleepy.they gave me sleeping pills. 0.o alr.enough said. (:

2007-01-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

darn.i missed my last cca promo!to think i was ecstatic about handling the booth with samantha.go figure,samantha knows me so well.i'd really rather die than miss lessons.dragged myself to tuition.i got soo frustrated over stupid dy/dx until i nearly cried.yeahh it's stupid.my head was spinning and i was feverish and there i was,doing dy/dx.crazy aye.dad's 5mins became 30mins.i waited till i felt like fainting.got home and plonked myself on bed and sleep like nobody's business.my voice came back!sort of.but it's still hoarse and bad.would you believe it?this morning i used 3 packets of tissue.cant bother to continue counting.kinda trying not to blow my nose too often.cuz it's alr red and sore aft this morning's blowing.it was so eeyer during tuition.i was blowing my nose non-stop.tsk.stupid,i got caught in the rain twice on thurs.i had an umbrella can.jst that it was raining heavily and there was like a mini flood.one word,terrible.plus,i havent exactly been sleeping enough.hellooo,im not so free like some people.can sleep at 9pm.hemhem* but i'll try to sleep earlier.at least til i get btr..there's acids bases salts,diplomacy and deterrence and em whole of last yr's chap to mug fer.someone say shit.

ohh and that stupid stupid idiotic show!made murong xian and tie xinlan die.ugh.it made me cry.and me nose got more stuffed up.tsk.

back to work.

2007-01-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

"cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do and nothing to lose.."

ohh if you heart harry and hermione,go to youtube.com and type smoixa.it someone's user name.scroll right down and look fer 'harmony memories'.it's friggin fab.

im beginning to feel the pressure alr.i really want my _points.is it unachievable?look,if other people can do it,then why cant i?i jst need to mug real hard that's all.go me.
ciao.

2006-12-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

accupuncture tmr.shitass.i dont want!but wells,it's the last resort.and it'd btr work.goodness knows how many times do i have to do it.ugh,so scary.im gna get poked tmr.eww eww.to go,or not to go.i hate family fights.it sure didnt make my life any btr.ohh and i CUT my hair today!it's friggin short now,but tie-able.the rabbit tail kind.haha.the aunty was commenting,yet again, on how thick my hair is.she's forever saying that everytime i get a haircut.honestly,it is really thick.the floor was 'flooded' with my hair (: but i LOVELOVELOVE my thick hair can.

2006-12-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!

2006-12-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

dear santa..

all i want for christmas is my great gran back..

gosh.why am i bloody hell emo agn.shut up.

anw,the gym thing has been quite good.yay me.

2006-12-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

maggot-y maggots.eww.breakfast was GROSS i tell you.the stupid carrot cake had a maggot(um dead one).damn.it wasnt the whole piece.like it got chopped off.all's left is the head and a lil bit of the body.shitass.hell i freaked out.mom brought it back to the stall and the ladyboss was like ,"whre got?!are you sure?" damn.of course im sure.what?i stuffed it thre to frame you.damnit,i hate crawlies.yeahh well,she said it a bit too loud,so one customer popped her head over and guess what.she said in chinese," i think it's the kind of worm that eats dead rats.." then she fled,abandoning the queue.eek gross.now it's stuck in my head.the maggot was big and had huge eyes.ahhhhhhhhh.my dad was soo kind to say nvm,you alr shooed off one of her customer.HELLOOO dad,it's a maggot not a cockroach.and like she herself exclaimed too loudly the "whre got?" dad,youre too nice.damnit,ive been eating from this stall since duno when.how many maggots have i consumed?mom claims that the other half of the body cld have been eaten by her.oh man.im starting to get sick.i cldnt bear to eat lunch.i kept imagining a maggot crawling from my noodle.eeyer.anw,mom's gna complain to the health authorities.DOH.if she doesnt,i WILL.sorry,but the maggot thing really sucks.and honestly,i think you DESERVE to get your license suspended or whatevs.

anw,ENOUGH.thinking bout it makes me squirm.and see,my dizzy spells came back.TSK.

2006-12-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

BLAH
BLAH
BLAH
BLAH
BLAH
BLAH

ohh go away.

2006-12-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

why oh why oh WHY THE HEMHEM SHIT.

it's so irritating.i tell you this every take medicine thing and ," oh shit did i forget to take any other pill?" and worse, i have to bring a pack of different pills with me EVERYWHRE in case i need em.so silly.ugh.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

andandand

im really scared of that stupid scan on wed.i guess im kinda used to the poking needles thing..but this one's terrible!i did a similar scan,but not da same place.anw,they insert some dye into you and the needles looks awful.and they wont take it out until it's over or sth.eeyer.i dont want..

DAMNIT.

2006-12-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

and whre does my ambition take me..
oops,my bad.i dont have one anymore.

i shall ignore all the stupid things ive been thinking of.

on a happier note,tmr's christmas shopping w mich.yay.we're ic of this yr's christmas wishlists (:

back to my ~~darling~~books.bleh.

2006-12-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

i jst feel like blogging.choir was good.but the best thing was : SAM AND I ARE STAYING,I SAID S-T-A-Y-I-N-G IN ALTO TWO.omgomgomg.ohhh YAY (: ehma happy kid.i was suppose to move to alto1.thank God i didnt.

duno why,im getting sick of my current template.gah.i found a cool one..but i somehow cldnt get the html codes.damn.ohh i got the codes alr.haha.

anw,tuition was great,as usual.with homework.sam and i were rushing thru it during lunch and dinner.lol.

aww..sam gg to istanbul *raises eyebrows* i'll miss her lah.tsk.faster come back then we'll go ICE SKATING.ahems,FYI the ban has been lifted.for a while. (:

ciao.

2006-11-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

ohkay.mich wants me to update so here it goes.

well the jap trip was fun.it was uber cold over thre.but i had fun wearing my trench coat. (: i shopped quite alot. anw,i came back w truckloads of stuffs fer my cous and friends (: didnt buy any clothes thre tho.they're all so friggin ex.eg: i skirt costs 100 over bucks. o.o damnit.i saw cool trench coats and jeans and and and so much more!but but but i cldnt buy em.blehh.0h well.took pictures. and oh oh we visited mom's friend's house.and they had a DOGGIE.a yorkshire terrier,to be exact.he's soooo cute.he even choose his own name.it was suppose to be robin.but he didnt like it and only answered when they changed it to dobin.haha.cute right right right?yeah.the food was great too.except that um by the end of one wk,i got too sick of it all.it's always rice CUM noodles.tell me,how much carbo is in thre.i gained weight.omg.hell yeahh sightseeing was way fab.i LOVE the mountains (((((((((((((: and the maple leaves.the reddish-orange-y ones are the best.woohoo.

anw,it's kinda late.so mich it shld be long enough. ;) ohh i cant wait fer christmas shopping.

2006-11-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

whre i am.

you want it badly..i used to have sht i want really badly.i dont know if you call this giving up or trying to live in a facade or i dont want it anymore.is this a result of overworking for a long period of time.you know what,i jst think that im not confident of myself reachingwhatever i used to want badly.i mean look how it ended up as.it's like pointless working so hard,cuz maybe i'll nv get it at all.i dont know what i want.this is horrible.

f u c k.

2006-11-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

yay,i love chem now.the tchr's good.really good!and samantha's thre too. :) ystd was last day of extended studies.the witch nagged like anything.gosh,gimme a life please.you get one too.thank god youre not my mom.or i'll suicide.um,kidding.anw,it's really scary.ystd's my last sec3 day ): ohwell.

im leaving in i-dont-bother-to-count hours time.hell stop telling me that this is a holiday.it like so isnt.ive to put work aside fer like 1 wk?and it's jst me fer 1 wk?i jst half dont wna go and half wna go.ahh this is so stupid.and im gna miss my last episode of net deception!oh man.but that's not the point.i can always save and buy the entire series :)) the thing is..i dont know.i dont wna end up fighting again.

and YOU.what'll happen to you if i go?not like im that good.but like im worried bout you lah.
and YOU too.who's gna make me feel alright?

but it's only 1 wk.hell yeahh,i need the holiday.ohkay,im going.

australia snowed.like omg.what's with the weather,man.let japan snow too.haha.ive got my trenchcoat!then MAYBE i'll die a happy person.the point is,that's scary.it's gna be summer,and it snowed.what if s'pore snows one day?let's sing the hallelujah chorus and it'll be judgement day.very funny,not.

2006-11-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep.tvb theme songs are keeping me company.~~tmr~~today in like 15 hours time,thre's piano.stupid pair of hands.cant you jst play properly.why cant you get that grip.i feel like crying,again.shitass.i wont.i hate crying.

2006-11-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

tell me all these sacrifices are worth it.it'd btr be.cuz if at the end of the day i find that they arent,im gna kill myself.ive taken away my own life.how can i do this to myself?!i dont have a life now.what i pusher i am.this is the hardest i can go.and i think it's the hardest anyone can ever go?actually,i dont know.haha.give me a year,i'll get that life back.even so,life wld be jst as bad.and i may even get more depressed,aft all the supression.i really dont know what the future holds.and im really scared.i dont want half those things to happen to me again.i know they will happen.jst that i dont know when.and im scared of facing them.i never liked reality.and i dont think i really ever had the courage to face it right thre.im always running away from it.shitass.

ohwell,it's back ot work.and piano..ugh,i want my life back.

2006-11-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

yay!tuition's settled.thank God.

samantha wants me to see her aunt.hell yeah maybe this is really a lil' overboard.i need more pills right?yeahh gimme.i want pills.i need pills.i live on pills and supplement tablets.im so LOUSY!*screams in frustration*tell me WHAT actually helps?hell yeah the shrink's making me see the btr side of life.but i somwhow feel that it's jst an act.me looking happy is jst FAUX.no matter how i try to condition myself,deep inside thre's sth tugging at me,telling me i know it aint this simple.deep inside it's hurting even more.cuz all the positive stuffs i stuff myself with is like lying to myself.it's jst like PRETENDING to be happy again.ohh shrink i aint sorry.im jst one of your hardest patient.shrinky even got so excited cuz i kept 'arguing' with her bout some of my thoughts.and eventually i gave in..cuz no matter what i say,she'd be trying to condition me to think the other way.i wasnt fully convinced it was ohkay.shitass i sound so depress and so 'wrong'.

tmr thre's church.how?!altho the bunsen burner thing was good,but i still feel so UGH.take a look arnd.i ~~dont~~ see anyone.only a sobbing girl.

2006-11-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

my hopes are dashed.damn.what happened.i need tuition!!!

2006-11-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

bio spa is over.ohh yay!i managed to light the bunsen burner.haha.
omg,my head hurts.it's like as if my head's splitting.damn.ah fuck it.

my teeveebee.ta

2006-11-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

haha watching my sassy neighbour."my eggs are waiting in the freezer!"sounds so wrong.bout the ivf thingy or sth like that.it's wrong.and the three friends of mdm tan very TOOT.haha and fifi's so ah soh sometimes.and phua chu kang is sooo funny too!samantha's coming
to my hse to PLAY tmr.wahaha.movei marathon and uh pick and taiti and bridge (: whoohoo.ohh and music!!!let's go crazy,we PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

daddy's flying to belgium choc tonight. ):

i wna go states or london to study. :) sooo cool..very random,i know.haha/another random thing,i wna learn somesort of martial arts.karate wushu whatever.

2006-11-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

it will pay off.has to.but yet,i feel so slack.IM SOOO SLACK.damn.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

even my piano's haywired.it's my habit.it's really difficult to focus on playing the right notes,right rhythm,do tapping,control my wrist.HOW?!i badly need to pass.oh help.

and i cant seem to finish my knitting.sam pulled a whole lot out.cuz the fraed thread had some problem.ohmy.

i dont know how to juggle my mugging,choir,tuitions and piano.forget the teevee and all.no time.really no time.unless you want me to not sleep o.o

2006-11-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

onetwothreefourfive,im your shrink.WHO'S MINE?

im so depressed.so many things have happened during the past few days.ms hamidah's leaving.my humans gna die alr.but i'll still do well.i'll make ms hamidah proud of me.even if i get saffiah.CHOY.hassan's ohkay.she's quite good actually..and like home's horrible again..i went to church today,i feel like i dont belong.i hardened alot.it's like now then i realised how much i changed.omg,im so terrible.im sucha horrible person.im like so mean to god.sometimes,it feels like it's me and me alone.why am i doubting god?I DONT KNOW.i dont wna know anyth.i dont know how.im so messy.ugh.i dont know whut i want either.i cant seem to keep things under control.how?fine,i admit that im scared.happy?

but

you can leave me alone.cuz ive always been alone.so i dont really need anyone.go,GOODBYE.

2006-11-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

i screwed out SPA.damn me.i didnt even finish the bloody paper.god please jst let me pass.jst a 5.then the nxt 2 times i get 8 and 8 then i can get my A.maybe ive change,or im jst numb.i feel like damn upset inside.but yet i dont seem to feel anyth.weird aye.well,thre's still a nxt time.and thre's still bio and chem.so i shldnt 'mourn' over physics and get on with the other 2.ive got 8 more.way to go.

back to mugging.i promise to mug like thre's NO tmr.

*i HATE locus.it's friggin irritating.ugh.i dont even see a point in learning bout locus.even architechs DONT use locus.am i right?*

2006-11-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

heymath presentation.
history UN thingy.
physics spa tmr.study physics.
i dont have emath txt,so i cant do anyth except those 2 qns.
study,study,study.

knock me on the head.

choir was fine.it got damn boring and tiring aft awhile.hellooo,the sec3 had school the entire day,of course tired lah.anw,the songs were ohkay.ms yin's sucha perfectionist.worse than me.blehh.but she's nice.

2006-10-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

SUDDENLY I SEE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myWZDnpb1UA

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

2006-10-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

everything aint fun anymore.even blogging doesnt sound appealing.not even teevee.my tvb.blehh.this sucks.what's w the MOOD man.gap is so cool.i wna go vivo like pronto and get all the clothes.

2006-10-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

01) Single, taken or crushing?uh,dont tell you xp

2) Are you happy with your life now?big NO.

03) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast? depends on the A factor.

04) Have you ever had your heart broken?um no.

05) Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?since when was cheating,any sort even with so called 'VR', accepted?!

06) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?duh NO.

07) Have you talk about marriage with another before?my close friends?

08) Do you want children?maybe.see first.

09) How many?dont know yet.maybe none.

10) Would you consider adoption?i guess so.

11) If someone likes you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?jst tell me.dont start stalking.

12) Do you enjoy getting into relationship?i dont know.

13) Be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?no ex.

14) Do you believe in love at first sight?i guess so.

15) Are you romantic?how wld i know?

16) Do you believe you can change someone?if i tried hard enough.

17) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?here?or the states?or london?

18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?depends on who im fighting with and uh what is it about.

19) Do you have feelings for someone right now?maybe.

21) Have you ever broken a heart?i dont think so.

22) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you deeply in love with, what would you do?let the guy choose.but i guess the friendship between us wld get a lil awkward.

23) Are you missing someone now?yeahh hell loads of ppl.

Now you'll have to ask 5 of my friends to do this survery in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blog to let them know.
1. my darling SHERLENE CHATTERJI!:)
2. michelle :)
3. samantha :)
4. melly :)
5. pohyi :)

2006-10-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

tuition's being to get not-so-boring.this is a miracle or sth huh.blehh.i really hope the doing hcinese everyday thing helps.i'd btr get like the very least a b3.or else..i dont know how either.jst dont let me get kicked outa higher chinese.PLEASE.

i cant go jobshadowing!that's damnit sad.cuz the they're held when i'll be overseas.ugh!thre's the sgh pharmacy one and the conrad hotel one!how fun.but like mst write essay then go fer interviews.eeyer.and like max 2 slots only.pathetic.sigh.

2006-10-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

failed like hell.im numb.more like a shock.i guess i havent like actually realise realise.abit like some nightmare that i havent woken up from.so that's maybe why ive got no reaction,yet.oh wells.please dont let em make me drop anything..i'd do ANYTHING to make em allow me to not drop any subj.sigh,i btr get a fer chinese o.or else i really have to drop higher chinese.i DONT WANT.i have to admit i really wanted to die or sth..but i changed my mind.im not gna die with sucha grades.i want that degree so badly.im not gna give up like this.no one wins all the time.failure makes you btr.just keep trying :)

im fine,i guess.

2006-10-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

doesnt mean that if you studied,you'll pass.so why am i working so hard fer chinese o?fer all you know i wont make it.then i'll get kicked out of higher chinese.ouch.
and no i wont cry.i refuse to think bout anyth either.you cant make me think bout em.whut can you do if i choose to kick em aside and shove em right behind my mind,nothing :)

YOU remember this : i was never perfect.rather,i was never YOUR PERFECT KID.i wasnt born to be one.TOO BAD.

2006-10-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

forensic heros:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZT29zPSimDc

fullhouse:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zk2iFu4DDyk

princess hour:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOC5JTDqPmA

yay!

2006-10-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

DONT call me bel if you dont KNOW me alright.eurgh.well,i know who is who now.thre's such thing called IP.oohkay.and DONT fake my friend either.enough said.

rewatching tvb.samantha will buy princess hours and we'll be watching tgt during the hols :) and my fullhouse too!both shows are somewhut alike.

the psi thing's so stupid.some plan after psi reaches 300.puh-lease,200 plus ppl w respiratory problems and old ppl will die alr.300?!how much of the population you think will be left?!darn those fire causing ppl.i bet you the CORRUPTED officials has sth to do w this.burn your head lahh.every year also like that.the govt is so irresponsible and USELESS.no thanks to the haze,ive started coughing and my nose's like dying.

chinese's making me 'sick'. jst 2 more weeks.aww man.

2006-10-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

looking fer a new blogskin.maybe im changing.see first.

okkay.a NEW add again.this time im quite positive they WONT get here.why am i like changing blog add cuz of em anw?sheesh.but it's starting to get really annoying.eurgh.besides,i hate hate hate to keep changing add.it's annoying too.you know whut?im changing back.fine,tag all you want.i SHANT reply.

the tvb show's damn nice!awwwww.got somemore?!

2006-10-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

STALKERS GO AWAY.thre's nth nice on my blog can.whut's your friggin; problem.eurgh.crazy people.

went out w andrea ystd.shopped til we got broke.waha.i got my fox green top and FULLHOUSE and my wool and size 6 needles.gta wait fer sam to come back fr bangkok then she can teach me how to knit.andrea and i went to ps then vivo then pp.walked until our feet ached like shitass.gap at vivo opened alr.but they didnt let us go in yet.sad.half the shops thre all not opened.SADder.yeahh thre's CANDY EMPIRE.omg.when i opens fer business im like gna go thre and buy TONS of candy :) woohoo.oh wait,suntec has one too eh?haha.

jst finished watching my tvb :) omg it's damnit cool.i dont mind watching again and again and again.ooh bot fullhouse.yay.so i shall now proceed to getting hooked onto fullhouse :) correction,i alr got hooked on to fullhouse.hahaha.the girl damn pretty.i like her hair.heh.

shit i havent planned my mugging schedule.been too busy watching teevee.blehhh.

2006-10-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

orchard(again) with viktorya and gen :) sooo FUN.thanks icecreamtub loads.
talladega(te-le-day-ga).damn nice.some parts were 0.o and some were AWW.

study thing's nxt wk.chinese starts this saturday.SIAN.eurgh.torture!!!

ive decided to get my fox shirt.it's WORTH IT.except it's green.but the green's okayy.lime green.no purple :( and card(s)

tmr gng out w andrea.wed.thurs.fri.feeling guilty..but ive studied(altho ahem not alot,well subjected) so hell yeah,GO OUT.mom says i deserve it.so 0.o..

back to TVB!!!

2006-10-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

bloody hell stop fucking harassing me.

it's nth.i always tell myself that that every time was nth.but it aint gna work anymore,soon.i wont scream,yet.

omg,forensic heros and fullhouse are LOVE.im hooked unto tvb shows now.and when mich finishes fullhouse,i'll watch finish the other 14 episodes :)

tennis and swimming w mich.then fullhouse and orchard.
tmr w viktorya and gen.
friday with andrea.my wool.wahaha.

anw,back to teevee.

2006-10-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

i say OVER!

whee.but it doesnt really feel like it's over.like tmr thre's still another paper.and the day after..i guess it's jst that study momentum.im sooo TIRED.

and it's sad.cuz ive got nth to bury myself into.i'll think and think and think.GAHH.

ohhmyy.micha nd i got stalked by some nutcase bangladesh guy at PARKWAY.we're walking then i looked up and saw the nutter.his eyes GLEAMED can.so freaky.i was nudging mich telling her bout that guy.and how he stared at me,i noticed he was behind us.we're entering pp and he was leaving.so obvious he was stalking us.FREAKY.mich turned arnd and saw those EYES.she freaked out too.we walked faster and he walked faster too.to think pp was damnit crowded alr,he still dare to stalk.anw,we rushed into yoshi.cuz like he cant get in.then he loitered outside,waiting fer us to come out.i guess he got tired of waiting and left.eew.viktorya joked bout him thinking i was his gf or ex or sth.like EWWWWWW.funny,NOT.

laoshi's hse MONDAY TO SATURDAY.wkdays 530 til 9.sat morn til evening.SIAN.so tiring.whole day chinese can die.nvm,got mich.haha.eeyer,now i dont dare to go home alone from laosho's hse.her hse so quiet.can take 32 or 33.but both mst walk thru quiet-i-bet-got-bangladesh places.32 must walk to the 7eleven.quite far.then must walk down the hill to get home.33 must walk OUT to somewhre near geylang/joo chiat.eeyer.got some temple.scary.and dad's gg overseas.shit lah.

ohh the japan trip is CONFIRMED.oh yay.i hope i get to see SNOW :)

enough.sleeping time.AUREVOIR showcowlah.

2006-10-07T18:53:00.000+08:00

the haze is damn bad lah.i swear i practically ~~cant~~ breathe.ppl like me got asthma will die can.spent my entire morn at laoshi's hse.argh,intensive chinese aft eoys.sian.then the entire aftnoon til evening w mich at bk mugging.we never realised it was that bad until we stepped out to go home.then we were cursing and swearing like shit.gosh!all these STUPID ppl shld go extinct.wtfh.m'sia's psi was 2oo plus.i think i'll die in m'sia.haha.viktorya's friend got asthma attakc or sth.like whoa.worse thing is,the pill im taking everyday like makes me more prone to asthma attacks.i am sooo dead.

mugmugmug.

it's ANNOYING.

2006-10-06T14:06:00.000+08:00

one word.

SCREWED.

why is everyone gg home to crash today?nvm.i'll prepare in advance,so hopefully i dont have to cram at night and sleep so late.i was slapping,pinching and bitting to keep myself awake. -.-

]going viktoya's hse to study later.

i'll be back.in4 days time.i'll be liberated!whee.
ciao.

2006-09-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

dont like,dont read then.simple.hell yeahh.go ahead,keep thinking ehma loser.whatever.i dont really care.*shrugs*do you even know me

hiatus thing is so not working.heck it.haha.rawrr..im jst really pissed.ohh you guys jst stop draining all my energy on forcing myself to be happy.im so piss i can kill y'all.my spot qns were like yay!they came out.hahaha.well but i still think i screwed ss.i mean i crapped through sbq and seq was like not really very good.altho it was sth i prepared fer.my mind jst went blank and like oops.EL was no btr.'driven by greed..caring fer their own happiness' i wrote bloooody hell rubbish.ugh.

granny smith,apples and uh lemons!hell aunt.thanks fer studying w me too :) fries,fries,fries.

tackle chem.love mole the wayy im beginning to love log

2006-09-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

today's the last day im blogging.and coming online.until eoys are over,that is.

did i study?!i dont know.im so confused.nvm,i'll pop pills again.then i wont freak out during the papers.im gna bring my jacket to school.it'll be comfort number 3.number 1 is the cross.number 2 is the medicine.okayy.i can and i will and i must do it.go me.and if i dont do well,CHOYY,then i'll mug the rest of my holidays.i swear.

it's really ugh when you say you didnt do it,when you did.how can you lie to me.i hate people who lie to me.rawrrr.

2006-09-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER : DONT READ.IT'S A DEPRESSING POST.I HAVE THE FREEDOM TO BLOG WHATEVER I WANT ON MY BLOG.SO CLICK THE 'X'.AND LEAVE.NO ONE'S FORCING YOU TO STAY.I DONT NEED COMMENTS EITHER.

what's wrong with me?is it stressed or emotionally hurt or am i plain crazy?!why does this always hafta happen?and at this point of time.thre's obviously sth wrong w me.cant i bloody hell be fucking normal?!ignore the fact that im leading a pretty much abnormal life now.change it fer me,will ya.i cant cut,cuz you said God sees what i do all the time.he knows.then tell me,why doesnt he do anyth?and i tell myself,God had it all planned out fer me.so what happened,happened fer a reason.now give me,one bloody perfect reason why all these are happening?do i deserve any part of this?do i deserve to get double,triple times worst most normal people?some people,dont even get it at all.i dont have the urge to go church.i dont even fit it.i still pray.but i feel that i dont deserve him listening to me.when he answered my prayers,i feel guilty.when he doesnt,i get disappointed and slide back a lil more.im not a brat who wants all the her prayers to be answered.but jst please..dont let all those bad stuffs happen.it that too much to ask fer?i appreciate you helping me with trivial but yet un-cope-able stuffs.but i wont mind giving up those fer hope.all those big bad things happen.and they made me feel that you dont care.or,im jst some minuscle particle,who's VeryImportantPrayers dont deserve to be answered.they're not sth totally UNreasonable.uh like get 100% fer what shit.or make me rich.i jst want a normal normal normal life.ok fine,normal life consists of hurt and pain too.but when my 'normal' hurt and pain come..they come either tgt.or blow after blow.ive yet to recover from ANY of 'em.this aint whre i belong.i want to leave.

can all you people stop saying i got study?cuz i feel like i didnt.like thre's NOTHING,ZERO things fer me to regurgitate.2days only.i dont deserve to sleep tonight.
ihateyoubel

2006-09-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

cannot.

2006-09-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

everyday in the news,thre'll ALWAYS be suicide bombing somewhre..aint that sad?gosh,cant those people jst have a heart?to feel?sheesh.HOPELESS NARROW ~~PEOPLE~~ IDIOTS.

i realise i study btr in a dark environment.like only the table lamp.room light's switched off.curtains drawn.then i'll tell myself it's wee hours in the morn.must study,no time.it sounds crap lah.but it works fer me.so thre.well actually,it used to be bright lights.but i jst realised that i gotta 'panic' myself to concentrate btr.so let it ~~shine~~ dim?!

jst hung up with ivy.ugh.she alr finished paper1.damn.ive got paper 1 and 2.i MUST study.how can samantha like DONT do hw at night but study.then go school and rush hw?!ugh.

school's surveys are shitty.i finish 319 qns then the server is down.so ive gotta go home and do.waste time.

CHILL BEL.hurry!!!breathe.go do work now.

2006-09-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

i blogged THREE time today.wtfh.

get that irritating depress-y part of me away.PRONTO.i need to bloody hell concentrate okayy.stop distracting me!ugh.im like sooooo bloody hell full of anger and pain and whatever shit.i was gna fling my (precious) calculator on the floor during emath.gosh,thank God i didnt.whats' wrong w me.my moodswings are worse than ever.noooo,i cant cut.i wont.at this point of time.the breathing thing my therapist taught me doesnt work.darn it.how can some people FINISH studying alr?!i admit im jealous.haha.anw,it's like no matter how much or how LITTLE i study,i still will feel that it aint enough.esp this yr.sooo many bloody subjects.on days when thre's 2 papers..it'll be the death of me.even if it kills me,it's gna be intensive.AND I MEAN IT.all the subjects EVERY BLOODY DAY.i cannot procrastinate ANYMORE.and aft eoys will be os.then PIANO.im friggin worried..damn.i cant clear my bloody head lah.
CHILL. (chasing cars is making me MORE depressed.so gna get rid of it.)
samantha,make me study tmr.

2006-09-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

i feel so UNaccomplished.GAHH.

honestly,the s'pore idol finalist dont really get much outa this winning thing.i mean look at taufik.he's like stagnant now..ohwell.i really want jonathan to WIN.he has a really fab voice.and he's like cute?haha.sheesh.they'r elike WASTING MY TIME.cuz i ended up watching the whole show.when the results are gna be released like eons later.still,the perfomances were great.i like wakemeupwhenseptemberends.tanya chua's good.omgomgomg..so kancheong.my heart is thumping like earthquake.the diastyole and the sth.cant rmbr.shit.but go study bio.AHHHHH.wait....

OMG it's soo expected.MY JONATHAN????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wtfh.he deserves to win more!he deserves the hype records contact MORE.i shant blog any stupid offending comment here.later hady fans hamtam me.waha.and jon sang 'you give me wings' soooo awww-ly.

i cant wait fer so you think you can dance.i'll miss the first 2 episodes.cuz of stupid friggin eoys.damn.

cioa.shall go mourn..blehhhh.

ps: ipp either tmr or wed.

2006-09-25T18:48:00.000+08:00

why am i on the com?
4 bloody days left.
i have to do MORE intensive work.
goshh,cant i jst slog a lil more.

2006-09-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

this is terrible.i wont be able to finish in time.ohh HELP.i must finish everything!feel like ponning school to stay at home to study.damn.no,'ve nv ponned school before.cannot.besides,it's rev time.i must LISTEN in class.cant sleep in class alr.how?how?how?im panicking.im sucha paranoid freak.eurgh.i must simply STOP panicking.cuz then when i study nth'll go in.worry worry worry until siao arh.nooo.anw,i planned everyth until 10th oct alr.so i'll jst hafta KEEP TO IT.heck the sleep.i'll sleep like a pig on the 11th,12th,13th,~~14th~~ (thre's CHINESE TUITION FER OS),~~15th~~it's beach day,16th.shld be enough to get rid of my eyebags.cant wait fer eoys to be over..then i'll have time to practice my piano like siao and hopefully PASS grade8.or else,i DIE.and also mug fer os.thre's stuffs to mug lor.like keep doing cloze and compre until you even do 'em in your dreams!or like dream the chinese characters falling on youuuu.err o.0

okayy ENOUGH said.

i really wna go ice skating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh puh-lease?

2006-09-22T18:40:00.000+08:00

how could you know that behind my eyes a sad girl cried?
and how could you know that i hurt so much inside?
how could you know that i'm not the average girl?
i'm carrying the weight of the world
yeah
so can you get me out of here?

chorus:
take me away
we'll jump in the car
drive til the gas runs out and walk so far
til we can't see this place any more
tick everybody off
give it a rest so i can forget about this mess
if i lighten up a little bit than i will be
over it

i'm playin' the role of the happy girl but no one knows
i'm sad i'm alone but i would never let it show
i dread every day too much work and not enough play
over and over it's always the same
yeah
but you can make every thing ok

chorus

over it
and when the world is closin' in
i can leave it all and just walk away
i can always start all over again
i am closer to a better day

chorus x2

over it
i am over it

aint it cool?i can relate to it,so much.love the chorus the best :) anw,went to geylang library to study w samantha.the library had some staff function and had to close early.so we went to my hse aft that.met choir snrs at the platform.hurr 0.o her online withdrawal.waha.thre was MOONCAKE.yay.and like we took break and starting doing jumps.i can do the axel and the toe loop.i love my axel.and samantha showed me her combi jumps.i wanna learn the lutz!

i must studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy.GAHH.

lack of sleep.my eyebags are EURGH.and im like getting ulcers in my mouth.okayy,i mst sleep.before i get ~~SICK, AGAIN~~.
ciao.

2006-09-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

tmr,tmr,tmr..STUDY!!!my study plans rock.waha.i must keep to it.on the phone with samantha.her dog's getting horny again. 0.o

go me!chill.i cant do it.

ciao.

2006-09-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

on the phone w samantha.friday :) must must must study!!!goshh,im sucha pathetic mugging.
RUSH.
RUSH.
RUSH.

2006-09-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

jst came back from victoria's hse.did amath.and like ABIT of physics.a bit,bit,bit.um yay?well,i studied.it's btr than coming home so tired and crashing aye?

im sucha loser.why cant i study study study?why cant my brain jst LISTEN to me and start like concentrating and not switch off?!fuck.i dont know why,get bubbly all of a sudden(i hope it wasnt fake.as in i always fake until now i fake i dont know.) and then totally depressed..wtfh.

oprah winfrey shows are soo emo.stuffs lile today's.she doesnt think about the effect.im so nervous bout tmr.i feel bad that i told the shrink,the therapist and my dad this.ohhmy.i mean it's not her fault,is it?well,ive been trying to tell myself that.she didnt mean to do that,all the time.she didnt realise anything,did she?but when she does that,i get so mad.no,pissed wld be a btr word.i mean how cld she do this to me?whatever- we'll see when tmr comes.please,jst dont let her have any reaction that's gna make me uber guilty.im sorry..i really am.i dont know what to do!i cant keep it forever..

2006-09-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

so what?arthritis?rheumatism?osteoporosis?damn why does my leg hurt so much?the bones ache and hurt.bleh.sheesh.maybe it's the painkillers.i prolly took to much it's like killing my calcium.one more added to my list.i mst pop calcium tablets everyday.sheesh,my daily pills plus the supplement tablets.w/o the extra supplements,i dont know what i'll be lah.i hae being reliant on these kinda crap.but,i have to. it's like if i leave home w/o my pill,i'll freak out.

i feel like scha loser.everyone's mugging like shit.and me?!how much have i FINISHED?!wtfh.

2006-09-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

bloody friggin _________

i heard noises from my room.my room's between my parent's and my toilet.and im hearing noises from both sides.like someone turning on and off the tap.and someone knocking the wall.it IS freaky.i must be hallucinating.ohh natball says that mama is moving to my hse.im shocked.ive stay here fer 11 yrs alr.now then she's moving here?!besides,didnt she jst move hse last yr or 2 yrs back.my hse is frigging fab.it's like beside the mrt station.so cool right?and thre's a cheers beside the mrt station too.

cant belive i said that.thursday,thursday,thursday..bracing myself fer thursday.

TEN FUCKING DAYS LEFT.that's what's left of me.i btr STUDY.and stop ~~SLACKING~~

it's soo sad aint it..everyth's jst this bad now..once broken,it aint gonna be pieced tgt again..once lost,lost forever..

straightjacket feeling :

2006-09-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

studied w mel today at yoshi.love miso soup!!!did history.then went to buy my diary from life bookshop.sadly,they ~~didnt~~ have the lock kind.sheesh.i dont think they sell the lock kind anywhre anymore.sad sad sad.nvm,i'll lock my drawer.so no one can grab and read it :) locklocklock!

stupid fainting spells.jst go AWAY and quit bugging me.i hate it when i get all dizzy and feel like fainting.then i'll like keep shaking my head so i wont get unconscious.like today,i keep doing that.i sometime shalf wished i wldnt shake my head nad like really faint.hopefully i hit my head and get amnesia.samantha said she'd cry.aww.i dont know lah.once at kcp i very nearly fell off the chair.last min i realised and gripped my chair..and my tchr was soo scared..

i must study hard!!!!

and nothing's okayy.

2006-09-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

CHILL.

ps: does anyone know if limewire's legal or ~~not~~

2006-09-16T18:14:00.000+08:00

ohhhh ystd the classroom block was fumigated.cuz thre were RATS.the sizes were all exaggerated.so i dont really know.jo and i left our bags upstair and went down cuz it stank.thre was no security guard when i got to schoo.so no one told me to not go in.whoa,apparently it was emergency.like rats swarming in the classes.from first to fourth floor.haha i wonder who saw those rats.EWW.if i ever do,i'll scream and and climb on top of the table.waha.my old house the storeroom had one.it was damn disgusting.okayy PERIOD.

2006-09-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

tuition and tuition.im dead tired.those fainting spells are irritating.my brain cells are die,dying,DEAD.woohoo.got venezia with mich and aunt.and then a lift home :) thanks.the rum is damn good.so you guys btr go try it!my teeth hurt today.

2006-09-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

limewire rocks!soundbuzz and itunes cheats.thanks to melanie and gab,i got limewire.ahh it has like everything!im dling all the songs i lost/the songs i cldnt find :) yay.aly and aj songs!!!esp collasped.finally.stacie orrico!ice princess songs!jennifer love-hewitt's barenaked is really SLOW.20 mins more.im soo slack-ish.TSK.

but...

ive got ALOT of motivation alr.whee -
oh i tried my axel with the other foot.left foot.cuz im left handed.but i jst cant spin properly.the right foot one is okayy.except i didnt jump very high.shall try nxt wk.my hip's btr.thank God my hand's okayy.

2006-09-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

crashed when i got home.i was forcing myself to stay awake during bio and chinese.kept pinching myself.gosh lah.i had this urge to jst put my head down on the table and sleep.heck the tchers.but i DIDNT.anw,the crashing did me good :)

stacie orrico has a really cool voice."im not missing you".youtube has nearly everything!haha.im prolly gna get her new album.i love stacie.she's good,FAB!

im not good enough.FINE.whatever - arent you pushing me?!

okok,i'll TRY maple.haha.aft finals. :)

2006-09-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

fucking pissed.ya lah,all my fault.happy?im jst NOT perfect enough fer ya.i'll never be good enough,will i?im SICK of trying so hard to please you ookay.ive had enough.you're ruining me.

got back my results today.i IMPROVED by ALOT.but it still aint good enough.

if you really think im anorexic/bulimic FINE.i shall be then.how many times must i tell you it's jst my gastric thing.and you keep saying that im not eating when i AM.ive earned my 6 scoops and gelato and im gna get 'em.ice cream is fattening,you know.so obviously i do not have any weight problems.

i dont feel like mugging leh.i shall go read my dummies book.

stacie orrico!woohoo!!!!

2006-09-14T17:51:00.000+08:00

jst came back from geylang library.went thre to study with samantha.and i got my ice skating fer dummies book!yay.realised that i fell down the right way.haha.

aww.watching holland v.the xiaoxin and jingjing part.aww.

x333 figure skating and my axel jumps.and the special people who bring out my rare smile.the real one.DOH.not the forced one.

one day,i have to say NO to you.and i wonder when.

i saw that person.omfg.

2006-09-13T17:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWiHyM4IJnk
go watch!
darn.i so wanna go ice skating now.how bout on the last day of finals?!kirsten olson is good man.cant believe she's my age.and yet skates soo well.im jealous.plus,she's a straight A student.blehh.

you know, i got scratched by a cat.like real.it's really gross.im regretting it lah.not so obvious now though.thank God.it's hard trying to hide it.keep wearing my jacket at home.sheesh.

i jst tried my axel.wearing mom's bedroom slippers to try the 'slippery' effect.first few tries were GOOD.but the last one,i fell.damn pain.my hip and my left hand.OUCH*

one day,the hurt will go away.

2006-09-12T19:18:00.000+08:00

it's gross now.fine,im not cold.but i want to wear it can.anyway,im really getting sick.late nights do kill.
i feel bad when i get pissed at you and blame you fer the 'destruction'.but hey,everyth that happened was all MY FAULT.non of yours.have you ever reflected?like today.~~STOP~~ snapping and venting your anger at me all the time.thre's limit,you know.one can only take this much.
(edit)
i WANT to go ice skating!i need to skate it all out.and try my axel on ice.not on the floor.
"vienna" by billy joel is nice.so is "get up" by superchick.anyone has 'em?send me PLEASE?
"slow down,you crazy child.you're so ambitious for a juvenile.but then if you're so smart, tell me.why are you still so afraid?..you can't be everything you want to be.before your time..too bad but it's the life you lead.you're so ahead of yourself..you've got your passion,you've got your pride.but don't you know only fools are satisfied?"
soo emo,emo,emo.cant stand it.
"i've fallen many times.."

and the days go tickin' by.

2006-09-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

eurgh!i must pass my piano exam nxt yr.damn.damn my techinques.damn the pieces.but i have to stop lessons.how am i suppose to concentrate?got chinese o's somemore.to some ppl,it doesnt matter.i dont care.that's your business.it matters hell loads to me. 17 days.i hate countdowns.countdowns make you go all panicky.even countdowns to hols.cuz you know the hols will pass damnit fast,and you can hardly get everything done.that sucks.

stupid msn service is DOWN.

this is bloody pathetic.it's 17 days.i know some,rather one person has ~~finished~~ all her rev fer eoys.that's CRAZY.i feel so bad.like i havent finished what ive planned to finish.hols hw are nearly done.what's left are those horrible chinese papers.and im planning to ~~re-do~~ my emath paper.now dont gimme that look.that "are you outa your mind" look.maybe,i jst am.*shrugs* i want it to be as perfectly done as possible.aftall,i am me,the perfectionist, aint i not?hem,altho not exactly everyth is in perfect order right now.well,it's all gna be under control in no time.positive.
somewhre the hurting must stop.it's gonna get btr..someday.it will,has to.
when the game gets bigger,the going gets tough.and the tough jst gets tougher.blehh.

cuts.

2006-09-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

wake up.wake up.wake up.it's 18 days.
damn.
it's gonna be til 2 and then 6.no excuses.cuz i wont give a damn fer any.
no piano til everyth's over.but i still MUST practice piano kay.pass,so i can get my elec guitar.
laoshi wants me to go to her hse every wkday from 6-9 aft my finals.if so,i'd btr get my A.
drowning in fatigue.*points* is thre such thing?o.0
save up fer lessons!i can do the lutz!
so many things to complete.yet so lil' time.pfuit.

ciao
away-busy-intensive-~~mugging~~ trytofinishhomework mode.

2006-09-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

yay.went out w moi cous.bringing lil cous out was fun.weird.im beginning to fancy dangly earrings.whoa.i nv liked 'em.now i suddenly do.*shrugs* i got purple ones today!im so purpl-y.waha.

bel,MUG.

when things go wayy down the dumps,you jst need to feel secure.prongsie*

enough.

2006-09-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

it's "why cant i" again.it's stuck in my head.

all emo once again.i hate that.
lily and james!aww.

SI is boring.uber.i jst wna see who gets out.hurr.jonathan is cool.all jonathans i know of are cool.heh.rui en has quite a nice voice i guess.obviously she aint comfortable on stage.and she's like i wna rock it but i dont dare to.closing your eyes and scrunching your face through out the entire sing aint nice,girl.i do not like jasmine.she really shld get out.jon or paul!arhhhh.either one,i'll be damn sad lah.okayy,paul's out.psychic people are scary.SAD!!!

mst finish my hw by tonight.i'll burn midnight oil.tmr got choir somemore.blehh.and aft that ive got bring lil cous out.um all of the cous gg out tgt :) yay.

bel,work hard okayy.you must must must must must get that.if you dont,it's pointless living.i swear i wont let you off.i sound schizo.gahh.

2006-09-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

"why cant i"ohh blast,get it outa my head!

"if you cld ___ it wld have all been solved alr.."
NO.
"if you cld jst get OFF my back,i wldnt be what i am today.the unhappy SICK kid."
get it?!

"why cant i" is officially stuck in my head.who started it?i thinking i kept it on reply mode when samantha was at moi hse.and it got stuck in her head.she kept singing the chorus in choir(cuz that was the only part she rmb).and she kept asking me how to sing the entire song and to rmb to send the song to her.so now,it's stuck in moi head.maybe im jst too sensitive..i find the song kinda sad.esp the intro(guitar) part.sheesh.

ice cream is heaven.unfortunately,the happy glucose high thing is beginning to wear off.~~that is bad~~ getting all emo is sickening.GAHH.i wish i cld get drunk or sth.blehh.

2006-09-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

ohhyea i cut my hair.abit.in terms of length.basically,i got it thinned and layered.so it's like my 'ponytail' is like thinner.um DOH.and it looks weird.i kinda regret.but then again,it;s GOOD.cuz it's easier to wash hair.and i wont get that much tangles!im trying to convince myself here,that cutting my hair was good.LOLness.i feel weird w/i my thick hair.pish.

thanks samantha fer coming over!it was PRODUCTIVE.we did bloody 4 subjects?!aint that good.2 math,2sciences.

2006-09-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

sheesh.i hate it when like so many people dies in the show.bloody director.bloody scriptwriter.and esp when the person dies with some sort of regret.damn.it's bloody saddening.they like to produce these kinda shows to make people like me get all teary?damn.i was alr feeling damn upset.and i had to watch the show.damn.

i dont know how and why but this feeling of insecurity jst lingers around.all the time.not to mention inferiority.why do i keep saying ,"i dont know". utter rubbish.and i DO KNOW how and why.no thanks to all the 'special' people.who made my life a living hell.the worst kind are those that you cant yell back at.it's more than those two.a hell lot,in fact.cuz you'd jst feel BAD to do that.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

how shld i tell/ask them..shit.
i hate it when night falls.i get all upset and i cant sleep.ohh hell.

somewhre the hurting mst stop..and whre?

2006-09-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

cant bother to count down the number of day to EOYS.it's damn stressing.
it's "the black pearl" and it's bloody COOL.

pirates of the caribbeean songs are LOVEEE.esp "the black pearl", "will and elizabeth" and "he's a pirate".i WANT those songs.but buying the cd aint really worth.divya has the dead man's chest soundtrack.ugh!alyba went to burn it.i shall ask her to burn fer me too!!!

tuition!yay,i FINISHED covering binomial theorem.and it isnt that horrible aftall.quite fun actually.i can teach samantha tmr when she comes to my hse :) kim wakerman was thre.she's the first and only person ive ever flamed.cuz i cldnt stand her on teevee.i guess she is human too.and she doesnt look or sound that bimbotic as she does in teevee.ohwell.piano was weird.i had to sing?!oral.and ahemahem some were out of tune.cuz my tchr made me sing melodic and whatever whatever.but it goes flat natural sharp sharp and blah.so i was trying to adjust.but my tchr said not bad can. :)

samantha's coming tmr :)to mug,teach me chem.cuz someone was busy.nvm lah.really.hopefully i'll understand the MOLE concept.if not i think im really a hopeless case alr.blehh.i will pass eoys fer chem okayy.i wont and mustnt drop any subjects!im wna go airport to study.or esplanade also can!see when you ppl are free.cant wait!sept hols are busy shit.ice skating will be aft eoys.i really hope i can go..the feeling on ice is..

WOW.

alright.25 days.happy?

2006-09-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

stupid head.i was struggling during chinese tuition.,issed amath tuition.damn.i badly need to go learn the bionomial theorem properly.i half get it half dont get it.no,i get it but i jst dont know how to to the qns.some.ugh.each time i sleep i feel as if im sleeping in a spinning teacup.it's either i havent gotten enough sleep(told ya late nights kill) or my blood pressure is low.i highly doubt it's the lacking of certain minerals cuz i pop supplement tablets okayy.anyway,i slept when i got home and im feeling btr :) tho i guess durning the entire sleeping session i was dreaming.sth like a part 2 from last night.ohh last night i dreamt that thre was gna be an emath test.we werent told of the topic.and only one topic will be tested.so instead of studying fer 14 topics we(the class) all choose 1 topic to study.and everyone was claiming that the topic they studied was the topic that was gna be tested.sounds silly aye?and it took sooo long fer mdm lenny to come in.when she finally did,she was stalling time.like keep talking bout other things and nv give out the paper.when she was gg to,dad woke me up to go fer tuition. 0.o sheesh.and so aftnoon i dreamt bout like um duno what competition or rubbish blahblah.i cant rmbr.LOL.i only rmbred the horrifying part whre i felt so _ . yup.wont what it is lah.

dad's back!and he got my purple bags.waha.one BIG purple on and um a small purple blu-ish one.it looked more blug than purple from far.L.A and texas. :) yay,love em.

airport mugging spree.whee.i love the airport.oh wait,IMF is nxt nxt wk.rioters at the airport?!ohhmyy.aiyah,nvm.we can watch the riot?0.o im not siao.

2006-09-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

ohh i realised i didnt mention the kcp visit.anyway,it was saddening.they're gna tear down the ~~entre~~ school.esp the general office and the library!it's like so old and antique.pre-war!how can mrs tan bear to tear it down?i miss the library hell loads.and the staircase linking the general office and the library.i miss the school like sooo much.ruoyu,vicki,louisa and i played the primary school game.hiding behind the bars at the hall and the catcher tries to touch you by sticking her hand thru the bars.haha.yeahh,that one.and ruoyu kept shouting at louisa(who was the catcher and trying to touch her) to go touch vicki instead.and she was like ," touch vicki!touch vicki.go touch her boobs!!!" that sounded wrong aye?but we had fun,SCREAMING away.reminiscene.it's jst too sad.ohh got my strings!um the strings to make friendship bands.i used to buy them practically everyday!the aunty at the bookshop still remembers me :)

shrink and therapist.so bored waiting thre!sheesh.i was walking to the doctor's room when i heard this lady exclaiming," she's alone arh?!" i dont know whether it was meant fe rme or what.train ride home was bad too.squishy-squashy.eeyer.

tmr's great gran's actual birhtdate.and it's my aunt's too.jst called to tell my aunt.she was soo shocked.cuz great gran only knew her chinese birthdate,first day of the eighth month.and i went to find the geogorian date.

alright.back to the away-busy-intensive-mugging mode.samantha,im waiting fer YOU online to teach YOU the graph.say happy "teachers' " day to me!LOLness.
well,happy teachers' day grandad.

2006-08-31T19:28:00.000+08:00

i DIDNT do any work ystd.i know samatha's soo gna kill me.sorry.i jst wasnt in the mood okayy.sheesh.and i cant believe i went to watch movie today!w andrea and jasmine. :) the rain was freakin; heavy. the devil wears prada.some parts were ??? but overall,it was bloody cool!the movie's got nth to do w the title AT ALL.
http://www.slate.com/id/2147842/
[ fer left handers :) ]

i wna faster finish my piano and PASS.cuz dad promised thta if i pass,he'd get fer me my elec guitar!with the amplifier and tuner :) how cool is that?then whenever i get upset,i'll go rock in PRIVATE in my room.i dont like playing the piano cuz it's outside.i dont like playing when ppl are watching;playing in a place whre ppl can see me.dont know why.but that's me.always been like that.jst say im weird. o.0

will,shall,must wake up at 630 tmr.mst prac piano.even if..and mugmugmug.and then go fer my stupid useless shrink and therapist appoinment.well,it'd btr work.my mom's nagging that im wasting money.jst lets say TOO BAD youve got sucha --- daughter like me,who gives you hell lot of problems.

depressed.fucking shit.yeahyeah think of it as angst,whatever.

oliver james is HOT.so is jonathan bennet.
will today's thorn be tmr's flower?

2006-08-30T18:36:00.000+08:00

we got fer ms lim a PURPLE cake.omg.so cool right.haha.choir was ook.alto twos are musical and sophisticated.we DONT sound cheena. :) choir's like getting btr.sadly,it'll never be like before.missing syf '05 loads!even if we were to get GWH nxt yr,it'll still be totally 100% different.well,it's life.thre are absolutely no identical 'stuffs'.choir will end nxt friday. :( or :) idk.

it's raining,it's pouring.WHEE.i x33333333 rainy days.cuz i get high!and it also means that tonight will be super cold,yet cosy.i wont mind if it rains tmr either.cuz i dont have a big bag.so it's ookay.feel like watching devil wears prada tmr.idk.mst go home to mug lah.mugging spree.

today's grandad's d.a .you know people say that when youre not close to the deceased,it doesnt hurt so much.theyre wrong.it hurts equally much.cuz you know you'll nv be able to spend time with that person anymore.and you feel sad.cuz youve nv really got to know that person.and you wished you cld jst have one more day.that's how i feel.the blow was great.one after another.i still cant get over it.i planned to spend more time with grandad.he had to go..

2006-08-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

it's "god must hate me".(hope not)and im not suicidal.dont know why it's on reply mode.i jst felt so EURGH.

i realised i forgot to bring back my gonghan.like wtfh.nvm.tmr amath got FREE period.so can go do.im so amazed by myself.im like mugging like omfh.as if im taking o's this yr.whoa.and i cant possibly get A1 overall fer amath at the end of the yr.cuz it means that ive gotta get bloody hell 79/80.that's ABSURD.plain nonsense.sheesh.why did i have to do so badly the frist 2 terms.ehh but i improved by ALOT okayy.from C6 to A1.still,it's not good enough.im very happy i passed higher chinese tho.chem got Fucking 9.im so pissed w myself.sheesh.ahh stop talking bout grades lah.damn.

im so low now.damn.stuck in sounds like fucking.that was random.it's the lyrics lah.anw,i wont do that.tmr's like the day.yeahh,one blow after another.it did have to be that bad.why on me?damn.ihatemyselfcan.

viktorya: i hope youre OKAYY. :)

2006-08-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

omfh.thirty-one!
it's "one day".im HIGH.i like the part,"ju-ju-just" and "to do-to do-to do"haha.

i realized the earlier i wake up,the higher i get.so i mst wake up early everyday :) waha.i keep taking that bus.ok,whatever.i wna watch beethoven.that dog show.but i cant find the bloody vcd.DAMN.tsktsktsk.
haribo is nice.ppl,go BUY.esp the sour one!im endorsing haribo now.haha.
yay.today's free day.kind of.so can hit the gym,prac piano,mug,hw and WATCH TEEVEE.and binge on sweets.im binging on haribo now.i am stressed,doh.that's why im binging what.but im not low.IM HIGH.cuz i consume too much glucose alr. 0.o im so nonsense.anw,tmr choir ends at 1530. :) can go home earlier to mug again.besides,choir's like super uberbleh-ish now.that's sad..sigh.

away-busy-intensive-mugging mode.wait i need to bathe and eat lunch first.chopchop

2006-08-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

thirty-two.
it's "half-life".and it's sad.

sadly,im not counting down to hols.instead,it's the EOYs.some ppl call em FYEs.or jst FINALS.blehh,whatever :) it'd be EOYs fer me.im crapping.sheesh.
homework and more homework.chinese hw is PURE TORTURE.i cant stand papers.not in the mood to do now.but still mst do.gahh.
i really shld be on hiatus.sheesh.but i cant stop blogging!and all the pages in my diary are full.i havent gotten a new one.i FORGOT,as usual.i relaly have a bad memory.tsk.oh so anyway,i shall decide not to hibernate.it aint good.too stuffy.im talking nonsense right?ignore me.
so ANYWAY,i have to go on the 'away-busy-intensive-mugging' status.till then.

2006-08-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

"the-funny-woman-who-likes-purple" waha.anime IS nice.esp the songs.it's cute.but i'd rather not watch.lest i get addicted to it.maple too.haha.it's harder to stop the addiction than to fight the urge.

33 days.shit.ohhmyy.

9 qns.zuoye.papers.assessment books.bye 11.hellooo 1!545 tmr.again.eurgh.

dinner.work.ciao.

2006-08-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

samantha and i planned alr.im gna hafta chiong the mugging like siao char bo cuz we started LATE.ohhmygoodness.im gna do emath tmr until i go insane.gahh.dont feel like doing now.cuz i ve had 2 tuitions and im not functioning.aww.so i mst listen to my songs and get high.get high!jimmy gets high!who is jimmy?um it's a daniel powter song title lahh.posh.blahblah.im like crazycrazycrazy.WHEE.

2006-08-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

Your New Year's Resolutions

1) Get a pet rat
2) Eat more escargot
3) Travel to India
4) Study artificial intelligence
5) Get in shape with belly dancing

What Should Your New Year's Resoluton Be?

1)i HATE rats.shoo them
2)escargots are some kinda snail delicacy or sth right?EWW.
3)india?
4)ahem.NO WAY.im not gna wear that costume and shake my butt.

You Are 88% Bipolar

You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life.Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder.

Are You Bipolar?

hell.

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

waha.

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic
At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung
You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping
Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

0.o

You Are 60% Grown Up, 40% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature.You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

im still bored.im on a blogthings spreeeeee.waha.

2006-08-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

eurgh!that irritating code.sheesh.
i mst chiong my chinese assessment books.
tuitions were tiring.i officially do not like the pearl in the milo.they put too much.and i got sick of it.yay,went lunch w mich and aft tuition went to get my supplies.i'll photocopy the book fer you lah.lest you get the wrong one.waha,you soo funny never the the correct title then wna buy the book alr.

anon is so lame and irritating.puhlease jst go bother about your own life.if you dont have one,go get yours pronto.i dont need you to stick your nose into mine.0.o and i have this feeling i KNOW who you are.whatever.if im a loser,you're MORE loser than me can.at least if i flame,i wont be anon.i'd be BEL.fine i know you think im crazy.whatever.i love being crazy.and i cut.so what lahh.raises eyebrow*

tennistennistennis!hophophop.

saw yvonne aft tuition.i really miss that batch of us. :( in less than 6 mths,we'll hafta hand over to the nxt batch.time really flies,at the speed of light! 3 x 10 power8.haha.wrong.so wrong.at that speed,we can turn time back.it's jst like a bullet train!im fifteen.like wow.im so old.sheesh.soon i'll be FIFTY.with wrinkles.eew.mst ask ms ng whre she got her botox from.hah.im so mean.tsk.
ahhh im soo tired.gahh.
i mst finish my emath quad eqn.tys and assessment bk.go me.

2006-08-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

Your True Birth Month Is March

MoodySecretiveRevengefulTrustworthyAffectionateLoves travelingLoves attentionShy and reservedMusically talented Loves home decorNot easily angeredSensitive to othersLoves special thingsAttractive personality Loves to serve othersLoves peace and serenityObservant and assess othersLoves to dream and fantasizeAppreciative and returns kindnessHasty decisions in choosing partnersNaturally honest, generous and sympathetic

What's" Your True Birth Month?

turn on the part of my brain that gives a DAMN.

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...And when you're down, your whole world is crashingScary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure
What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

im BORED.

2006-08-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

okayy they said choir was bad.orh,you guys btr have more discipline arh..ms lim was upset today or sth.tsk.jst as i planned to not miss the man at the canteen and go order choir photos,i missed the photo taking.rar.

i was rushing like a mad cartoon,trying to make it to the hospital in time.rar.i reached thre like on-the-dot.say im pro.skipped lunch.got hungry.no time what.and i spilled it.not all.nonono.jst bits nad pieces.first day of hols,1st sept, is gna be spent with my shrink and therapist and MOM's coming fer the therapist thingy.dont ventilate.please.

tennis on sunday.watched my cous's coach teaching them.so also know eh,i got 'hop' one lor.jst that dad said i looked stupid.idk how come i know how to 'hop'.actually,i rmbr watching this teevee show.it was some ann kok and duno who else tennis show.sth like the champion.but it's a tennis one.and i kinda 'learn; from thre?i jst loved it a lot.my neighbor's kids got a coach.and they're like primary school kids.i want a coach too!haha.nvm.i'll learn myself.
dinner.
im sick of YOUR nonsense okayy.so shut up.

2006-08-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

i tried to relink the new blog add by refreshing the page code..but it cant work.damn.i'll go ask shuwei when she comes online.sorry :

ilovetennis!loveloveLOVE.tennis is x33333
my 3 scoop gelato awaits!ohh yay.no thanks to victoria's calories influence..im beginning to watch my weight.BLEHH.

chinese is eurgh.torture.so is chem.esp when thre's hw.darn.

i dont wanna miss choir tmr.aww.hopefully by sacrificing choir time to see the shrink will get me the time to come on sat and mon nxt yr.syf'07!somehow,it'd be different.very..

i love my mom's yogurt cake too.and the yogurt icecream :)

"you dont,you dont,you dont,you dont
you dont mean anything to me."
not sorry i cut.

2006-08-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

thank God blogger's working now.i wasnt ystd,when i badly needed to blog.anyway,i survived.so it's alright.

missing choir and photo-taking tmr.that's sad.ohwell.jst when i decide to buy the photo this yr,im not gna be in it.no thanks to shrink and the specialist.i realised im always spending time at the doctor's.damn.i spilled part of it to my therapist today.and i told her if mom was gna be in the room tmr with the shrink,i wont talk.so i guess she'd prolly tell the shrink.and maybe MAYBE i'll spill tmr too.idk.i jst need to burst it.it's getting to be a very heavy burden.and it's tiring.

what's with s'pore idol man.if mathilda can get voted out,then really,i dont think it's a talent competition.it's more of a popularity competition.darn.mathilda's GOOD.effing good.idk who else derserves the SI title more than her.and she's out.tsk.okayy thre's still my jonathan.haha :)

fucking depressed.

2006-08-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

sorry i keep cutting.you dont make me alright..